So, I quit my job… Ya. That’s real.
I didn’t realize how fast I’d be ok with taking this leap.
It started for me when I was offered a promotion at my previous job. I wasn’t excited by this opportunity. It was a weird feeling having something that I’ve worked so hard for the past three years right in front of me, right at my fingertips. Having something that I well deserved and, was more than capable of doing right there and feeling nothing. My first reaction to this opportunity was “Oh Shit’. Not really what you want when you’re being offered your next role. Even with this first instinct, I took some time to think about my options. At this point, we had just started our business. I found something that I was stoked about, and the future was bright. I needed to make a decision. On one hand, I had finally been offered something I deserved, something that everyone know was the next step for me. More money, stability, the safe option. Would I have time to put my full self into my business? Could I be 100% invested in my new role when my mind is filled with visions of what I want to do with my own business? Did I even really want to go into a new environment with a new team and build something pretty much from scratch? It became clear to me that the answer to these questions was a hard NO. I declined that role.
For the first time, I took a risk on myself. I mean, I’ve taken risks before… Moving to New York alone, moving to BC, uprooting my life and moving to Australia, but never one that didn’t have a clear outcome or the stability for me to create a life. In that moment, I had no idea if it would reward me in the end but clearly, I’ve never been one to take the safe/comfortable route. I decide things for me and I’ve learned to listen to my gut. Might seem crazy, but it’s worked so far. This could be one of my greatest strengths or one of my biggest downfalls but who the fuck knows! All I knew in that moment was that the not so safe option was worth the risk of failing. Because failing, to me, is much more valuable than regret. This is one thing I didn’t want to look back on and ask myself “what if?”
So now fast forward a few weeks. I was in the same role as before. Happy going into work, doing my job and leaving. Something happened to me when I declined that role. I was no longer invested in what I was doing, and that was very apparent in my performance. I showed up every day for the people, however it was the little things that I let fall. I ended up having a meeting with my store and regional managers, and when they were speaking I found myself feeling disconnected. Did I want to be in this meeting? No. Did I want to be performance managed in a role I was not invested in? No. Did I want to be put on an action plan to gauge my progress by ticking a few boxes? Fuck That. I didn’t know that going into that meeting I would come out giving my 5 weeks notice, but for the first time in a long time I felt a massive weight lift from my shoulders. I no longer had to feel like I was disappointing people. I didn’t have to stress about missing little things, and I no longer was thinking about work when I got home. I could just be. I then focused my energy into enjoying the next 5 weeks with the people who had become a big part of my life for the past year and a half. It was clear that it was my time to move on and even though it happened way quicker than I could have anticipated, I wouldn’t have done it any other way. I am so grateful for my time with lululemon and I have learned more than I could have ever imagined. Not only about business and how to build relationships, but I have learned more about myself in the past 3 years than I ever thought possible. I have grown so much as a human, and I owe that to all of the amazing people I have met along the way (you know who you are). The friendships that I have made are forever, and that’s just icing on the cake.
This next step is a game changer and I’m ready to see where we are capable of going. Some people may call me crazy, taking this leap without knowing what the hell is going to happen next, but I’ve never felt so clear in what I want and I am going after it in a big way.