Business Worry

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So when I first started to think of how to write this first blog I got caught up in the fact that I’m not a writer. How can I write something that even comes close to what bloggers these days do as much as everyday? Are people going to care? Will people even take the time to read this? Then I really got connected to why I want to do this. What do I actually want to get out of writing down what’s going on in my life? Ultimately letting go of the fact that it has to be good, and looking forward to sharing may journey as a new business owner. It might not be pretty, but the best things usually happen from things that aren’t.

I didn’t always want to be a business owner. I was completely happy with the idea of finding a job I loved, in a company I loved, and living out my life heading to work, coming home and being paid. It wasn’t until this year that this completely changed. I started questioning what I was doing, where I would go, and if I was even worthy of my current role.

I then took a step back and asked myself what do I actually want in my life? What is important to me? How do I want to feel in my role? Who do I want to be, and where do I want to be? It then became clear that if all of the things that I want are going to happen like I want, I’m going to have to create something myself.

Connor, my partner here, has such a huge influence on me (little does he know). Always creating space for me to be me, always living into the possibility that life can, and will, be everything that we want it to be while always taking me along for the ride. For this, I am eternally grateful.

Over a few wines one night, Connor and I mapped out what we wanted in a role. What a day would look like for us, and how we want to feel everyday (mostly) going to work. It was clear that we were aligned in pretty well everything that we discussed.

Deciding to register and run with Hone In was one of the scariest things I’ve ever done. The voice of doubt reared her ugly voice… Yes, her. What if you’re not good enough? What if no one wants to partner with us? What if this fails? What will people think? I think this is a completely normal reaction when deciding the rest of your life. Taking a few breaths, stepping back from these throughs, and channeling the positive Janice, I sat back and thought, but what if it does work? What if everyone loves it? What have I got to lose? I’m not saying that the other voice doesn't creep in almost everyday, but realising what the cost is of not taking this chance scares me more. (Having a business partner that’s on the same page helps a bit too)

I’m not saying that this is going to be easy. I’m sure there will be times where I want to quit (and that scares the shit out of me), I’m just saying that I would forever be kicking myself in the ass if I didn't take this step.

So here I am, a business owner (holy shit), with a passion for people, authentic connection, and facilitating positive change, jumping into something that I never thought was possible for me, scared shitless about where this all could go (in the best way possible). Sounds a bit cliche, but I figure I’ve come this far, life’s way too good to spend it doing something that you’re not passionate about.

Stay tuned friends, cause now you're here with us too :)